This is not something I would post on my blog or something I can share with anyone, even a content of my blog but this is unbearable.




Ah, I'm such a liar! If a liar's pants will catch a fire then my whole body will. I lied big time because I only know of saving my own ass. Ok, honestly I lied pretty hard, I'm a hardcore liar. It's not some white lie that can be fended off just by saying 'just because' but an inflictive web of lies.

And today I dodge cannons and bullets because one of the strings broke. I could come clean but, I STOOD BY IT because God knows I am not ready yet and I will delay the inevitable up front.



The moment I heard those magic words I know someone hit bulls-eye and I hyperventilated for a split moment. I must be swift so I gather my remaining sanity to compose myself and in that kind of lie you got to keep repeating things over and over and over again for your words to sink in, to kind of catapult your story. My cardinal rule of lying..... kill the bastard, so its one less side of the story.


If anyone would be very observant they can see my tell; how my voice reached 8 octave, how I immediately developed ADHD and how I painstakingly poured myself a half-full glass of New Year's leftover wine. I think my whole body convulsed and my heart kept pounding in my chest it's hard to breathe. It is not a wonderful feeling at all. My defenses automatically went up it is tiring and I'm always on guard. I think I just played dodge ball all by myself against a full player on the other side of the court. You either dodge or catch, it is extremely up to you how you play your card's well.




I've been raising eyebrows from everyone if you're still reading this BUT...

My reasons may be a total shit and my righteousness may not adhere to an approved system of righteousness conformed by the society or anyone who throw sticks and stones but, I know I will stand by it not because what's done is done but because even if the circumstances were different, I will still choose what I have done and I guarantee you it's not just some pretty words. And I already know I messed up big time so cut me some slack. The ripples will meet me half way since the truth shall always and never fail to transpire and I will be set free of this but in God's time. I'm not just simply crossing the bridge when I get there, I will make my own. Lies spits mockery so I already bought my own umbrella just in case. whew! sooo deep! wuuuu




Hah!!!! Ok, I'm good now. :0














NP: American Idol Season 6 Marathon Auditions

Americans are a bunch of retards seriously XD